A New Day

Out at 4:45am for 5:15am reveal.

$10.94 5.5 miles 1 drop—(HD)—not my best—but I’ll take it…A plastic strong box…

Got to see a lot of people I haven’t seen before the New Year…

At rally point: got gas ⛽️ & got two small food items under $1.40 (a chocolate piece and crackers with sour cream & Cheddar)

$32.03 18.9 miles 2 drops (Sam’s Club)

Perishables all.

Behind a gate—with info in our notes.

Delivered then on my way out realized that the gate opens in from the inside so I threw it in reverse and then waited until it opened and got the heck out of there.

Tried making a phone call—but by the time I got on no on could hear me so they hung up.

I had waited about 12 minutes—and was driving…On the way back to my rally point I stopped at the Circle K on Van Dyke…I had the bank on my phone—I got gas ⛽️ and went to the bathroom and just as I was walking out some came on the line.

I had just put $30 into my account and I was trying to get rid of two $10 overdrafts—I did

By 9am I was ready to Spark again…it’s now 9:40am and NOTHING has come in—not even a weak shopping 🛍️

At this point I would call Mom—but I’m not going to—she wants to treat me like I’m invisible—which all points to IM NOT—then she can find out about me WHEN SHE CALLS ME—and actually wants to talk…No texting or sending blog blurbs either—this is a TOTAL blackout…She can deal with me on her terms—but I’m not budging first!!!!!!!!

Talking with Samantha last night gave me the permission structure to not keep falling for the fact that Mom & Dad are in their own little (lovely) world—that I can’t seem to break into. They’re more worried about themselves and Sydney than they are about their own children…

I’ll see them on the other side when they want to find out what is going on with me?

It’s 9:50am and still nothing—I’m going to go home and hope for a Roadie or Zifty—I had on Draiver go by—but I wasn’t quick enough to get it. Gigpro & Qwick will turn back on tomorrow after I signed up for one that I couldn’t take…I’ll be more careful???!!!

Got a $8.53 Roadie that is in the direction of home from 245 (HD) 6 miles…Headed towards Bearss (home) delivery off Nebraska…Thought I was to get it out of lockers—but no, it was inside—the girl who helped at 6am helped me AGAIN…

I delivered both boxes to the receptionist at 10:22-10:23. In 3 hours (at 1:23) I will be able to get instantly $6.54–that will make it just enough to cover my Sirius XM bill that began pending again when they put ALL my bills through…I’m knocking it down!!!

The $30 into my account and the $20 back definitely helped…I’ve still got a ways to go and a lot less gas ⛽️ I hope my tank holds out.

Everything is alright in Origin—I’ve kept up.

I heard the Christopher Cross song (2009 version) Ride Like The Wind—and it’s mirroring my mood…The shirt I put on this morning was my light blue with explosions that says NEVER QUIT.

I guess I won’t be going out again until the $38.28 Zifty hits my account—could be Friday—could be Monday…

I am officially stuck…This would be the time I call Mom and ask her for help—but I’m sure now that she has said no once—she will say it again—in her words “Dad’s not working anymore so you can’t bankrupt us.”

It’s 10:50am—Gilmore Girls comes on in 10 minutes and then I watch either MS NOW or something on the Hallmark Channel…I could listen to music 🎵 or get a jump on Yuno.

Well just have to wait and see when this 3 hour block is finished ☑️